I promised to let you rest in peace
But months came from weeks
Peaceful sleep ain't had a piece of peace
Awaking nightmare's more like
In dreams you're so lifelike
It's like
I could just reach out and touch you, right?
And you'd tell me my hands are cold
I laugh and go in for the hold
Never wanting let you go
But I don't suffocate you so
And in that moment something weird happens
A whole lot of stuff I can't address right now
Cause there's a lot I gotta compress right now
I'm trying my best right now
I ain't my best now
I ain't my, uh
Forgive me
I know you raised me stronger
To endure it longer
But I can't dress the persona
It suits me no longer
Mind's like a typhoon
Shot down at high noon
And I don't wear my vest
My mood behind you
Is the Wild Wild West
And I'm so borderline depressed
That I can't even hide the stress
My highs are more then less
And they all suggest
Like they just know me best
But they don't know the depths
Of the hole left in my chest
Stoups I've stepped
Drains I've clipped
Drowning afraid
Knowing
That I'm just holding my breath
I said I wouldn't do this to myself
But look what I go and do
Pray to you
I vowed that I would make it on own
But I'd give up the comfort of a home
Just to get through to you
Mama, I miss you (Mama, I miss you)
I don't know what I'm posed to do
Without guidance from you
Mama, I miss you
And I'm so tired of holding in the truth
Mama, I
At first
I was gonna take the second verse
To talk about how things went from bad to worse
But it made me so mad I hurt
It made me so mad I cursed
Doomed consumed with gloom
Hollow as moon
My feelings a tad to jerked
Ma, the words ain't even worth the work
It would take to disperse the spurts
Why in the world
Have I walked this earth
Without my parents' love
Not even a pair of hugs
And it's been apparent
That my parents
Was a parent
Yeah, that's all it was
And I
Tell myself from all the above
It's just anger
It's not a grudge
But with that I rise
Just to realize
I may have hurt you
On the inside
Emotional benched pride
My attention was so wide
It's no surprise
I was a child with soaked eyes
For everything I felt deprived
You kept aside
Mama, you did more than just provide
Played jeopardy and doubled the gift of life
There's so much I owed you
I never got to show you
You gave my candle light!
So it's only right!
I face my strife
Stray from it
No other day or night
Fight for my kids
Until it's right
And that's probably the hardest vision
Knowing that they'll miss all your wisdom
So please guard them with all you can give em
And rest knowing I'm grateful for your 89 decision
I said I wouldn't do this to myself
But look what I go and do
Pray to you
I vowed that I would make it on own
But I'd give up the comfort of a home
Just to get through to you
Mama, I miss you (Mama, I miss you)
I don't know what I'm posed to do
Without guidance from you
Mama, I miss you
And I'm so tired of holding in the truth
Mama, I
I'd like to
Take this time out to reflect on
Exactly why it's so hard
To get over
You know, this, uh, this
I guess you would say when you lost one
Because I was there like
Right
Right before I got the call
And you
Like you didn't even know
And that's what bothers me the most Mama
And if I'm not making sense
It's because I've barely spoke
The things I want to say
Cause the things I want to say I barely know
Least of all I'm grateful though
Unconditional
The love I've known
From out the womb
Into your home
You raised me as if I your own
Proud to be able to stand engraved
Even though I may have strayed
I stand here as the man you've made
I'll try to keep my head unfazed
But if I can't make it through long days
I'll jot more conversations on page
Ah! Mom, look there. You're right again!
Goodbyes don't have to be our end!
I said I wouldn't do this to myself
But look what I go and do
Pray to you
I vowed that I would make it on own
But I'd give up the comfort of a home
Just to get through to you
Mama, I miss you (Mama, I miss you)
I don't know what I'm posed to do
Without guidance from you
Mama, I miss you
And I'm so tired of holding in the truth
Mama, I
I said I wouldn't do this to myself
But look what I go and do
Pray to you
I vowed that I would make it on own
But I'd give up the comfort of a home
Just to get through to you
Mama, I miss you (Mama, I miss you)
I don't know what I'm posed to do
Without guidance from you
Mama, I miss you
And I'm so tired of holding in the truth
Mama, I
Я поклялся, что сделаю это самостоятельно
Но я бы отказался от дома
Просто чтобы добраться до тебя
Мама, я скучаю по тебе (мама, я скучаю по тебе)
Я не знаю, что мне поставили
Без руководства от вас
Мама, я скучаю по тебе
И я так устал держаться в правде
Мама, я
Я сказал, что не сделаю это с собой
Но посмотри, что я иду и делаю
Молитесь вам
Я поклялся, что сделаю это самостоятельно
Но я бы отказался от дома
Просто чтобы добраться до тебя
Мама, я скучаю по тебе (мама, я скучаю по тебе)
Я не знаю, что мне поставили
Без руководства от вас
Мама, я скучаю по тебе
И я так устал держаться в правде
Мама, я
